I'll stare at the floor or T's diplomas and play with my necklace or rings...anything to avoid eye contact. And then I usually wait for T to say something so I don't have to.

Lately I've been super vulnerable though, to the point of crying and not being able to control it...but crying can be good, and it took me a really long time to be able to cry in T...I think 2 or 3 years (with the same T).