There was a lot of scary anger in my home, but anger expressed by children was not allowed. I'm sure that resulted in some fear of anger for me; but I'm not sure it's possible to suppress one emotion without suppressing other emotions. I think that was what happened for me, and resulted in depression. And as therapy unlocked other emotions, anger followed. But I did have to experience "safer" emotions before I could feel my anger. And after a lot of work, I was able to feel anger as a positive power more than as a destructive force.