It seems to me that your mind is not functioning well. Your mind, of course, is not the same as you. But it's a part of you. When my mind is not functioning well it is hard to me to know what to do and to see things clearly. That's what I think people are thinking and trying to say.

I have had psychologists and psychiatrists who have hurt me, usually unintentionally. But over time I think my mind, and how I understand myself and the world has gotten better. Can you talk to your psychologist and psychiatrist about your fears they will hurt you and what you and they can do if it happens to make things OK again?