if it was me, trust me, that's how i'd do it too- no one knows (well, no one will, i don't have family, friends, etc). but i suppose my corpse can't just lie on the floor somewhere- i need to think about these things

i've not told anyone because i'm so used to being judged and ignored- and i have a feeling that what i say would mean nothing.

plus.. it's fear

i can't ring them up- because of phone phobia, i can't go and see them because of agoraphobia.

so that leaves email.. and how many people who organize funerals do you know that do things by email.

(well in my case, not many)