Yes I have depression & have worked with it for 27 yrs. I did the route w/meds & T's & it really has gotten me nowhere.
Yes I've lost faith, love, hope in life. I question everything now & don't truly believe in much. I've also lost those same qualities in my religion.
My biggest source of guilt comes FROM my religion & my own family members.
I made vows when I was married to raise my children in that faith. Now I don't wanto. My parents are "grieving over the loss" that I've dropped my religion & tell me how I'm damaging my own children. The guilt & shame is palpable.
They really don't wanto hear why. Their not open minded. What I say is a source of argument & a lesson in preaching.
I don't need that.

I'd like my children to understand the golden rule. To live by it. If they want more organized religion they may go seek it.

What I value may not necessarily be what they will value. I don't want them to blindly follow along in life. I want them to seek their own space & values, but that's hard to explain to them when their young.