I would probably have a hard time if my T was checking into my stories, and actually told me about it. The one thing I know about my T is that she believes me. I may not 100% feel like she loves or cares about me, but I do know she believes me when I tell her something.
I doubt my T has the time to try to dig deeper. And actually, I'm kind of torn. In one way I could also feel touched that my T spent the time to look into ME...not necessarily my stories.
I actually am seeing three Ts right now. The newest one kind of made me think.... she is the only one of the three who lives in the same town as me. She just lives a mile down the road, we shop at the same stores, etc. It's possible she knows more about me than she lets on, just because we have lived in the same town for 15 years. I'm only about 6 sessions in with her, but during one of my earlier ones, she referred to a family member by his first name. I'm quite sure I never mentioned his name, and it surprised me a bit. I brushed it off, thinking maybe I had mentioned it, and she remembered. I feel 99% sure I've never said his name.... but I just blew it off. My memory doesn't always serve me the greatest. So, I guess it's possible that she knows more about me than I think....but hasn't said anything... but if so, I would attribute it to the fact we live in the same small city, vs. the fact that she could be nosey. Although...she could be. I don't trust my memory enough to say something, but I remember being taken back with surprise when she mentioned his name, because I was quite sure I'd never mentioned it. My first T, who I've been seeing for almost two years, twice a week, wouldn't even recall his name if I asked her. And she's pretty good with that stuff...
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