We only met at this New Year's Eve and this trip went really bad, because we were attacked by a group of people, I was attacked by some guy and there was this girl who verbally hurt me very much.

And now I'm sitting at home, can't find a job and generally don't know where I'm going. My emotional states get weird and I don't understand anything. I get total derealization, panic attacks, intrusive thoughts, very rapid thoughts and an extreme fear of psychosis/schizophrenia. I'm again afraid to leave the house and I'm totally isolated, because I don't feel i can cooperate with others.

Also my physical health gets bad.