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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Anxiety. It's very draining.
I want to be more open and outgoing to make more friends, but my anxiety always holds me back. Basically, I constantly worry what other people will think of me, and I'm afraid of doing something stupid that I'll regret. So, I tend to keep to myself. That's probably a large reason why I don't have friends anymore. I went from having a large handful of friends to having none. I tend to shut everyone out when I'm anxious.
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You can really do anything and make it look good, really! Anything! Seriously.
Wear a tin foil hat. As long as you're confident it looks better than without. Really (just is so paradoxical that confidence is hard: common sense, so just insanity, trumps emotion and reason)!
You've got it the wrong way round (probably):
it's not doing the right thing that gives you confidence, it is confidence making things right! (I sell T-shirts with that one
) That's how it works, whether you like it or not.
Same with mania: people suddenly see the crazy after they've believed in you for way too long. You were crazy to begin with. Just be it with pride! Integrate
some (or all if you want) of that mania in your "true self". You can if you don't feel it's something "wrong": it's better than doing things with no confidence and all your morality and rationality completely intact.
Believe me: I am utterly crazy and don't hide it and have great friendships.
I really hope you don't give up! Be yourself and love it, no matter what.