Are you generally stable when you take your meds?

If so, are you putting your son at risk by not taking them?

Finally... Is there anything that trumps your son's safety and emotional well-being? Do you have any greater responsibility than the well-being of your child?

IMHO when you look at it in such stark terms, the right answer immediately presents itself.

And FWIW your posts are usually much clearer and more coherent than this one. I wonder how well you really are doing.