That I've intentionally fried my communication circuit to try to force people to talk to me directly.

I hadn't thought about the cloud but yea as part of the same thing I've created a huge cloud of disinterest and irritability around my desk so that to complete the task I have set they would have to see through that, push through that, and try to talk to me.

I have no idea why any of them would be motivated to do so. For all they know I have some medical issue that I don't want to talk about and I want to be left alone.

In the beginning of this relapse I was trying to resist building this cloud by forcing myself away from my desk and to talk to coworkers but as this has progressed I guess I first lost the will to do that and now I've lost the ability to do that... Tried last week, couldn't, went home instead.