It's happening again - I'm sinking!!! Why?! Can't see the point of anything - just want to stay on the couch forever and not face the world... Can't handle living... Tomorrow I start a new job and I can't handle it... Can't bear to face it... feel that I'll have another breakdown and take a sick leave again... feel i can't do it... feel I can't do anything... feel like there's no help anywhere - I'm destined to rot inside.....