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Originally Posted by Shaly78
Well, it says something about self report someone where, you have the DSM 5 criteria then there are other materials that are indicators that treatment providers use to assess as well...Since she said she isn't seeking a diagnoses and not in therapy at least that wasn't stated....The bottom line is you have something, an alter this is within you now you that you are accepting, but don't want to make a mental health step. The only thing you can do is continue the research, read here, use as needed as it fronts, but the moment when if your life becomes unraveled don't hesitate to enter therapy...I like WebMD explanation, if your going to use here to type stuff, 1 alter could turn into emerge about 4 or 5 more alters, especially if you have a hectic life. Its best to let sleeping dogs ly, those memories open us some much and you meet one after the other. There is no set guideline on how quickly, how many, what they will say, what kind of turmoil, or anything like that. I agree with Amanda, if it is DID you probably heard and occasional voice low very low voice from time to time as a child , but with me mine got way more volume, way more humanized, less able to hide and put off themselves, they sprouted every where inside. And is very easy to want to be super person and go into survival mode then silently it can slip away from you, especially if you lead a hectic life. It is like a cheating spouse you keep poking around in there you going to find more and more the same with alters and memories....So if you are ready then enjoy the journey it isn't going to be easy, but if your rather cover it up and you ARE okay then so be it as well. If you feel you can handle it, DID is a coping mechanism don't worry about any type of therapy.
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Originally Posted by -jimi-
Lyall is not alone anymore, he is not a lone protector, because you found him. You learned what makes him tick and you accepted him. I find that amazing in its own way.
Also, since he is a protector it is possible maybe he watches your life much more than you can watch his? So maybe even not making his own social contacts, he is not completely shut off?
For those saying you don't have this and that, just ignore. If what you're doing works for you, that is all you need. Also unfortunately some people on every health site pretend to have more knowledge than the rest of us, like being medical staff and so on. :/
About "coming out"... I totally understand the conflict even though I am a singleton. Maybe there is a compromise?
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Thank you both very much. Again, I'm very hesitant to call this an alter, or a case of DID/OSDD. It just feels like the most accurate thing because he's not just a voice I hear, he has physical control over my body. He can switch in whether I want him to or not. And he has a specific role that he was created to fulfill; protecting me. I'll keep looking into it and consider other disorders too, but can any other disorder really do this? Create an entirely separate person who can override my consciousness / agency / etc. in order to help me live my life / survive? I realize my account seems doubtful since I completely forgot to mention any signs of this from my childhood, but that's because I didn't even think of examining my childhood further until I read the responses to this thread. Now that I have thought it over I feel that there may have been warning signs from when I was younger.
As I said in the post prior to this one [which is still pending at the time of me writing this], I often lashed out and behaved in a highly aggressive and animalistic way when I was younger over arbitrary offenses. When I did those things, it felt as though it was not me who did them. I would come out over it feeling dazed and confused, unable to understand what had happened. For example, I bit some of my friends when I was in elementary school on several occasions. I once pounced on a kid in my class and growled at him because I thought he was threatening me, and another time, after telling my friend I was not a human [again, I do not feel as though I'm the one who said that, although it came out of my physical mouth], I tackled him and hissed at him because he continued to insist that I was. More recently, I was walking with a friend maybe two or three years ago in the woods. Suddenly, out of the blue, I was hypervigilant and convinced that this friend was not trustworthy and that I had to get away from him. So, I suddenly picked up a stick and started bashing him with it. He had to physically restrain me in a headlock for me to stop. The minute I was restrained I 'came to' for lack of a better word, and had no idea why I had done any of that. I was horrendously embarrassed. It felt like someone else took those actions, not me.
These are all things that are inconsistent with my personality. I am a pacifist, not a fighter. I almost always try to find civil ways to get out of a non-ideal situation. But in these cases, and a considerable amount of others, something came over me that prevented me from acting the way I wanted to act.