Hey everyone!

Now correct me if I'm wrong (I dont know if you can consider this a breakthrough or not) but I realized something about myself, literally 10 minutes ago. So I was thinking about my last session I had last week where my therapist and I started talking about really painful and scary topics in order to help me confront them. So what I realized was that for some odd reason, I dont show my true emotions in front of T. For example, if I talk to T about these topics, I act as if I'm okay with it or at least not as scared as I would be if I were not in front of her. If I even heard the topic we discuss out in public or with friends, I would just get up and leave so I dont have to deal with it. But in the office, I just sit there and take it, then come home all freaked out.

I dont know why this happens though. I just act "cool" about it in the office but outside it's just a whole new level. Should I just pretend or act that it bothers me so that the feelings eventually show? I'm so confused.

Anyways, yeah, has anyone ever felt this way? Thanks !