I think you don't want to be thought of as a bother. You don't wwant to be any trouble by pointing out things that don't work for you. This is your therapy and your life. It's fine to go on sitting there behaving well, but it won't get you anywhere. Avoiding discomfort just ends up with you hiding part of you that needs to be exposed and treated with compassion and care to try and heal.
Try not to treat that scared part of you so harshly. Exposing the scared part to painful conversations and pretending they don't affect you is doing you a disservice. The scared part deserves to be treated with care, to be brought out and say "I don't like that" so you may examine it and try to make it less scared.
Right now you seem to view speaking up as being trouble for your T (from what you've said) rather than treating it as the very reason for being there. You deserve to be healed and have a real chance to heal rather than be sitting in the same seat 10 years from now.
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