Been in one relationship after another since 2015 (4 of them to be exact)where I end up getting dumped and feeling broken hearted... anyone else out there going through the same? I just got dumped today and I messed it all up, me and my baggage and negative outlook.

what happened in your relationship? how do you feel? any fears? hopes? How do you get over this? can a person who's been changed by depression to have a pessimistic outlook ever find love? my getting cheated on in a 3 year relationship (habitual cheater , empregnated 3 women during relationship) caused my depression and changed my outlook... caused insecurities and lash outs.. ended the last relationship, a good one. but I promised myself I wouldn't ever be stepped on.. I don't know if misread the signals in a truly good person or if he was trying to mold me into what he wanted me to be.. I don't know what is a gut feeling and what was insecurities post-depression. I'm 34, no kids. I fear being alone and I just want to love someone who loves me back. it seems too much to ask. to be happy and in love. the end of a relationship feels like when you throw something into the deep water and you watch it disappear forever. I'm crying as I write this... it's just so painful.