Most of today I felt like collapsing, but I resisted; good job me! >=3 And I also had some jasmine tea a while a ago, a little bitter but pretty nice! And then, um, I'm starting to learn how to make an omelette, can't do everything by myself yet but I'm going to try that first thing tomorrow, gonna' wake up early for that! And I also just really want a f@cking break because I'm really tired of having to pretend I'm okay and functioning, maybe I don't want to function right now how's that? I can pursue my future AFTER I reach mental stability, right? It's simply not healthy for people to move towards the future while just being "passable" or "getting by despite major depression", that results in people half-@ssing their dreams and spiraling down into the abyss. :/

I mean, I know people can never really be okay because suffering is one thing that connects us all, but can I at least reach a state where I'm "okay enough"? Can I PLEASE be allowed the time to do that?

... Well really I'm just way too scared to ask for even that much, my parents would be really disappointed in me. ._. I mean that's probably not true, but, just, rugkdcspkodsf rtao8t4wg8sr'Pgkgzbiwgtv