I don't know why she still behaves in hurtful and critical ways. There's a lot she does to try to keep me dependant on her while at the same time she treats me poorly. I'm still scared of her, so I didn't say all I wanted to. I'm fearful of her anger. I do trust my t, I'm just doubting her ability to read the situation due to the limited contact she has had with my mother. I guess I haven't been totally honest with my t about how much she neglected me, the emotional neglect as well as the physical neglect, the lack of care and protection. I know she was busy - she worked three jobs to keep 6 people. But when she was home she would lock herself away from the children. When there was violence, she would not comfort her children afterwards, she would leave, scream at the children or lock herself away.

Her quick temper is one of my fears. Another is her ability to swich off and totally disregard me and my feelings. She is not a naturally compassionate person in the first place but, when she switches off, she can be outright nasty.

Ugh. Sorry for the ramblings. I'm just trying to figure it all out. Do I continue a relationship with her? I just don't know.