QM
First I'm so very sorry to hear about the situation you're in w/your family & therapy. It must be terribly difficult to try & find your own voice.
Second...I don't think there are ignorant questions. I'm hoping someone here can give you good information for you.
Finally, I can offer you nothing on the subject AFA research, but to listen to your own inner voice.
Many people go thru trauma & many handle it very differently. Don't label yourself to try & "fit."

I wish you perseverance and a tenacious attitude!