I have decided to become a nurse! I have an undergrad degree in psychology and a masters in education. I got them because they interested me but I really did not have a clear goal. I did not know what I wanted to do with my life and I just did those because I knew I needed to keep making forward progress. Now, I really, truly think nursing is for me. I am excited to finally have a plan and goal--to know what I want to do with my life--it has taken me 36 years, but now I feel...I feel satisfied with my choice. Also I am really excited.

I am a little nervous about school. I just enrolled in a math class so I can prepare to take the entrance exam. I have 2 years of classes to take before I can start the nursing classes. All of this is going to take some time because I have to do it while I work full time. If I did not have my house I would quit my job and just do school full time--get it done with. But, at my age, I really don't see myself living in a tiny apartment and living off student loans. I already did that --watching every penny and eating beans and rice. And then there is the fact that I still have my student loans from my previous schooling--it is going to take me forever to pay them off--esp since I will be adding to them.

But, all and all, I am excited and I look forward to the challenge. One thing concerns me...the meds I take for my depression affect my memory. I hope, maybe, I can cut some of them back so I can get through school. Its all going to be difficult, but I think I can do it! I just have to work at it.

Anyway, I just wanted to share.