YES, a lot of other members understand and can relate. Others can even understand the inability of sharing with their T. It's good that you found some place to express these deep challenging feelings. It can be very difficult to put the reasons for these deep emotional challenges into a cohesive picture that can be articulated. Also, often individuals refrain from doing so because these individuals do not want to get a reply that tells them "not" to have these feelings or to "just".