I try to leave my SO bc my head says No, but my heart is so much stronger, then I say Yes. I have broken up with this person 9 times and gotten back together. I don't know what's wrong with me. I have a history of failed relationships. My moods shift like I'm floating in a different sea everyday. So I'm a different person everyday. I don't know what God's will is for me and I'm a wreck.