I keep thinking of doing something embarrassing. I always day dream a lot. But these days my dreams all have turned into embaressing or bad stuff! (I barely remember/see dreams at night I'm talking about day) I many times End up fisting and raising my hands in real world! Which looks weird. I many times slightly say words like "stupid" or etc under my lips and get back to reality! Which I usually turn into a song to avoid awkwardness ! I also feel like my thinking has become "messy" it's hard to describe. I also feel like there's a mist around my brain. I can't think. I also many times avoid talking to people speciallly girls. I feel embarrassed. I know it sounds ridiculous but I keep imagining that I accidentally will do something embarrassing like sneezing on their face... Yeah.... Or saying something stupid. My talking has also become kind of weird.... I feel a lot of things I can't describe. Like I keep feeling something like lava between my chest and stomach!

And I keep writing wrong words. Like G instead of H and when I want to correct it I just do the same thing again.... It's even worst in my main language .... I also talk weird like I accidentally use other similar sound or similar meaning words instead of each other. Like I write chip (IC) instead of cheap

I also have this feeling like. I don't understand what's happening. I keep reading a sentence a few times before understanding it. Like I read something meaningless.

What is wrong with me?!