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Originally Posted by kimimila35
I've been thinking about it a lot lately. This past week, my Ts secretary called and cancelled my session twice. Im extremely worried and feel let down because my weekly visits r what keep me going. I feel happy after therapy even though Iv found out that this isnt a healthy thing. im too dependant on him and i think he knows it.  so now i have transferance and am fighting emotional overload . Even the other day I got jealous when he was talking to another client and thats so not rational. |
I sense that your shaming yourself for something that is a) not your fault and b) completely understandable. You are not wrong or 'unhealthy' for having feelings for your therapist. if he intends to reciprocate those feelings, that is
his wrong, not yours.
I also certainly hope you're not drawing the conclusion that your T is canceling your sessions, because of something between
you two? If your T is aware of the Transference (they usually are) and dependency, they it would be highly unethical for them to respond to it by canceling your sessions and not discuss the issue with you.
It sucks that you have this burden on you and you can't get in, though. I hope you can get in soon and unload some of this to get it off your chest!