My insurance company has really screwed me over and did not authorize my geodon. I have been on geodon for over 5 years and i take a massive dose. I know they denied it because it's over the FDA limit but it keeps me so calm and stable. I don't want to come off it, but the appeals process can take weeks and i only have enough for 5 days, so it'll be a quick titration down probably with a lot of anxiety, crying, and shaking.

My pdoc wants me to try rexulti, but i don't have high hopes because it's related to abilify and abilify made me suicidal. I told him i'd try it but asked him to give me more klonopin to get through the switch.

I've been crying most of the day today because i don't want to switch meds and i'm angry at the insurance company. I don't understand why they just won't fill prescriptions like written. I was doing so good, and now there's this ********. I just want to give up and crawl in a hole somewhere.