Started back to work at 75%, 2 shifts so far have been difficult. Not patient care, but my speed is way too slow and I can't do any of the surgical and orthopedic procedures that I love to do.

Now, both mom and dad are in Hospice, different facilities, 25 miles apart.

I'm having massive anxiety!!!!! Pulling my car out of the garage yesterday, I crashed and significantly damaged the garage door, it's railings and my car door.

My biggest problem right now is overall overwhelming anxiety and fatigue.

I know things will improve, but not fast enough for me.

I HAVE to go into one day at a time mode. I just must or I'm going to need to be locked up or put a gun to my head. I am not suicidal.

Thank you so much for asking about me. You made me feel better��