I don't particularly dislike my birthday although the past few years they serve to remind me how alone I am devoid of family or virtual family. I have a lot of friends and if I throw a party I can get a lot of people to show up but on years when I am not up to organizing a party for myself no one so much as invites me out to dinner. They're all acquaintances, there is no one special enough in my life to want to take the lead in organizing a party or inviting me out. I've organized parties for plenty of friends over the years but now there is no one I would even want to for anyomre.