I admittedly haven't been following Eden's struggles as closely as others, but based off of what I've read in this thread It is mind blowing to me that some people are actually suggesting psychedelic drug use to someone who is actively psychotic. It's irresponsible and dangerous.

Eden, it sounds like you need intensive professional help. By being honest with your psychiatrist and therapist you can find a safe, healthy treatment plan that will get you back to a place of relative normalcy.