Do You Know?

Do you know?
Just yesterday I dreamt of you
We worked together with shovels
In the garden
Pulling out weeds and
Planting flowers,
Yellow, with the Fall light
Around us
We leaned on our shovels
And mostly talked

Do you know?
How today I was alone
Even when I was with you
And him
How my deflections
Both hid my pain and
Scattered your vision
But you saw him
And I was falling apart
Catch me
Nothing
You promised

Do you know?
I will never do that again
It’s over
What a mistake
You said I would be safe
You would be there
To protect me

Do you know?
That dream
What prescience
For at the end,
I leave you alone
With your flowers
And shovel
And don’t look back