The funny thing is that I know I won't be an OT again. I'd have to do some serious re-training and I don't know how that even happens. Most of it would return automatically in the right job but some wouldn't. And nobody would hire me with years of unexplained not-working time. But I keep remembering being in grad school (which I hated most of) and focusing on writing out "BeyondtheRainbow, OTR/L" and how much that meant to me the first time I wrote it for real.

I am pretty sure I have another year. But this year has been so confusing that I could certainly be wrong.

I just don't want to lose control again.