Thanks everyone, I've decided bpd is what has been wrong with me all my life and I'm going off bp meds. I'm not going to tell the dr bc he's out of it anyway. I can't believe I've been treated for bp for 15 years and no one saw it. Well actually, one Dr saw it ten years ago along with bp but it was never mentioned again, I didn't even know what it was. Didn't take the latuda or trileptal last night. Going to try and take it down slow but I'm so excited to get off them I just want to quit cold turkey. Decided to get another dr opinion but can't get it until July. Thanks everyone here for seeing between the lindes