When I married my husband 21 yrs ago he was agnostic, but went thru w/the religious parts Bec I wanted it.
Quickly into the marriage it became a source of disagreement. Then he says he's not agnostic, he's atheist. When he talks about religion there is a steely hatred in his voice. It makes him angry, defensive & rigid.
We've parted ways on this subject. Things we agreed on early in our marriage, he changed & I cowered. It's been extremely difficult to hold onto a religion & very lonely. My church is extremely cold.
But besides those points, I held onto it myself & took my kids with me. It was one thing I thought I could give them that was from me.
But the past couple of yrs my own views on my own religion has changed & things I valued & wanted to instill into my children I really don't value anymore in the grand scheme of things.

When I told my hubby I was planning on leaving my church, he smirked, but kept his mouth shut. He's not supportive at all. We don't support each other or even talk anymore unless it's about on the surface stuff.
We're different people then when we got married. I guess some couples grow together, but we've grown apart.

Anyway, I just feel like I want my kids to have a deeper, fulfilled life. Not "go to college, get a job, get married, work, retire, die..." I want them to want more.
I feel like I'm starting to understand that late in my life, but my husband is focused on.....stuff I don't care about.

Sorry to rant.