I need to do my continuing education and examinations this year for my brokers Licence.
So I totally understand. But you can only live in the present moment.
You can not predict the future. It's negative self talk to say , no one will ever hire me again. Think about now. Read the book the power of Now.
If you have the strength, find out what's up. If your certification and Licence is up this year or next.
I went thru a period of time, where I just didn't want to know. Then one day I felt enough personal power to go online and look up my Licence #. I plan on ordering my study materials in May.
It even gave me the idea that maybe when my husband retires I might go back to work.
So anything is possible. Hope this helps.