Had a really hard session today. Wanted to fall on the floor sobbing so I wouldn't have to leave. Knew that would be infantile, so saved it until I got to the car. Cried for an hour before I could manage to drive the 3 miles home. Now wondering how I can possibly survive until my appointment Monday. Barely even scratched the surface today of all there is to tell. Don't think I have it in me to tell more - EVER. She moves on the the next patient and I have to go home and figure out how to deal with the secret that is no longer secret.

Point here is that I could really stand to feel the love - pretty much through Monday at 1pm!! I'm open to PMs too - hint, hint!!!