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Originally Posted by Bill3
It sounds like you might feel shame at being a t who is also a client.
I agree that your view of t as a colleague would be good to discuss at a future session.
You do seem able to speak quite freely here, perhaps the anonymity helps. Did you know t personally before becoming her client?
I think that you have covered a lot of good material here. What are you thinking and feeling about tomorrow now?
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Yes, I do feel shame about it. I feel like I can't fully be a client, because I'm not in my regular life. There have been times when I have wished that I could just start over and not tell my t that I do the same thing.
The anonymity does help a lot. I feel much more able to be honest about what I'm thinking and feeling here. I didn't know t before I started meeting with her. I've been to the same clinic before, but I made sure to be assigned to a t who I did not know. I didn't like my old t there much anyway.
I'm still feeling a little anxious about tomorrow. Discouraged, as well. I felt like I could be ready to start tackling some deeper issues this week, but now it seems there is so much more work that needs to be done first. I think we need to address our relationship first, because I can't get into what I need to work on if I don't feel comfortable with her. But that feels like so much work, and I feel like we will be wasting a session having to work on this issue.