That all sounds wise.
However, you might immediately get help treating the symptoms: they don't have to diagnose it as BP (yet), because it would be hard to tell if it "really" is, indeed, but they can diagnose you with a substance-induced mood disorder if it is clear that your changes in mood are severe and pharmacotreatment is advised.
It could also be "just" a personality thing, made worse by using drugs. For example, borderline personality traits might've "caused" you to do drugs to simulate some BP-like instability. There might then be other problems that you "replace" by substance-induced instability. Best thing in that case would be to find better ways to deal with your problems. Possibly by having a bit more "respect" for the needs you have developed your personality for to deal with: analyse those needs and fulfil them in a more healthy, constructive way.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide.
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