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Old Apr 05, 2016, 12:21 PM
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Originally Posted by zijax View Post
Thanks everyone, I've decided bpd is what has been wrong with me all my life and I'm going off bp meds. I'm not going to tell the dr bc he's out of it anyway. I can't believe I've been treated for bp for 15 years and no one saw it. Well actually, one Dr saw it ten years ago along with bp but it was never mentioned again, I didn't even know what it was. Didn't take the latuda or trileptal last night. Going to try and take it down slow but I'm so excited to get off them I just want to quit cold turkey. Decided to get another dr opinion but can't get it until July. Thanks everyone here for seeing between the lindes
Like many others have (and I and others have in similar threads), it is not unlikely and probably very likely, certainly in your case, that you have both BP and borderline traits.

If you take the right meds, it may help you to lay the personality part bare, so that you can develop it into something that doesn't interfere, or maybe/probably even help, with your functioning.

If you don't it might be too much of a mess to untangle and severe mood changes will lead you to suppress your personality, which will make it only worse if impulsivity trumps suppression (which it will). As Trippin2.0 said, a borderline personality highly interacts with BP.

BP-I is not at all unlikely (actually very likely) together a borderline personality, especially with (very) dense mood cycles. It is the changeable anxiety that causes erratic mood swings and these in turn cause borderline anxiety, expression and again anxiety. Highly cyclic, positive (and negative) feedback loops.
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