I've been labeled bipolar since I was 12, I have epilepsy that is becoming more and more damaging to my body and mind. I'm paralyzed from the waist down as of a month ago. I am terrified that I won't be able to have a child, and then I had a big seizure again now my head doesn't lift off my chest or shoulder. It upsets me so much, I'll be really happy for like a day, or a day and a half and then plummet thinking about all this stuff that me and my husband had planned, and I assure you that, that did not include a wheelchair, I live on the second floor of a 3 floor house, I have a bathroom on that floor and that's where I spend my day, my inablilty to function is driving a wedge between my husband and I. We love eachother but he's afraid he's going to hurt me by just touching me... I feel sad inside, I currently reside in my fathers house with 2 of my 6 brothers and my 4th step mother, they're closer to the doctors, and it's 5 hours away from my husband, I can't stop the debilitating depression that's trying to swallow my life whole. Please, ideas?