this is a vent
I have such a crippling anxiety it keeps me from doing things I love with people I love because I'm in this anxiety is just killing me

I can't drive, I dont have a license and I honestly get to the point sometimes when I get so scared to drive because the last time I went for my road test the person giving the test said I would kill someone. I don't believe I am THAT bad of a driver because the person I tested with previously said he felt safe driving with me and I just needed to practice a little more

But I keep hearing her voice over and over again ,"You're going to kill someone" and I worry every time I get into a car, in the driver's seat that I'm going to run someone over and kill them...

This fear is keeping me in the house and it stops me from visiting with friends because I'm so ashamed I can't drive. I'm 21 and I have tried for my license three times and have failed every time, I have friends who tried for their license ONCE when they were 16 and they passed the first try.

I dont get it, I'm more than careful when I drive but I just get so anxious that I make stupid mistakes

I really want my license even if I never drive again I just want it to prove that I can do it, I want to prove to myself that I can actually achieve something

I have my road test scheduled again for next month and I'm already freaking out about it, I have been too scared to practice and I am thinking of cancelling the test or just not showing up

It sucks I was completely fine before that lady told me I'd kill someone. I know I'm not a bad driver, I am good at parallel parking I can do a Y turn I stop completely at stop signs, but when she said that I fear for everyone's lives that I'm going to one day forget something and murder someone with a car.