I've been guilty of internalizing my emotions in the past. So, I'm acknowledging here the deep sorrow I've been feeling the last few days. I miss my grandsons and feel so bad for them. Their mom's in jail(substance abuse) and their father will have to do it all for awhile. I'm working my way out of a very long depression and I can't really be of help. It just hurts on so many different levels.

I'd like to go see the boys but I'm afraid of crying in front of them and I don't think I could handle leaving them. I'd probably feel more lousy about my inability to care for them right now. I'm just hating my shortcomings right now. Thanks for letting me vent.