I totally understand that drowning feeling going back to work after time off due to mental illness. It was only 6 days ago that I got out of hospital and 8 days ago that I first went back to work. My doctor wanted me to go back to work from hospital in case I had major issues. Thankfully, with the help of PRN's, I got through ok. Still last Sunday I felt mixed and really struggled at work. I thought I was going crazy and was paranoid others knew and that I would lose my job. Since then I have bounced back to stable and am managing ok. It seems to take time to settle back into work after time off unwell. Hopefully you will be feeling stronger soon. Keep taking your PRN's when you need to. Good luck with your appointment Thursday. Hope you're feeling more stable soon.