We are not physically intimate at all. I adhere to a strict hands-off policy. By too fast I meant that we are perhaps spending too much time together, there are good feelings, I fear it's about infatuation, though there are some things about him that I value and admire and respect, and I feel like I'm on an amusement park ride speeding away and not taking the time to listen to my rational mind. To take a step back and say, hey, what was that statement he made all about? Or, hey, he's mentioned he wakes up at eleven in the morn....blink blink....what ramifications might that have in a committed long-term relationship (marriage). Hey, he mentioned something about giving his ex-wife a million dollars....what's that all about....ah, he invested her personal monies in the stock market and lost em all.....hey, rational mind needs to process all this, yet the ride is going at full speed, we are infatuated with each other and I'm not taking the time to take a close look at some of his behaviors and how they might impact a marriage.
So I'm thinking we need some time off from each other, not to talk on the phone cuz then we feel the good feelings and don't take the time to look at the real issues.
Am I making myself clear?
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