I knew I shouldn't of bothered talking to my GP, My therapist I spoke too couple days ago says I have social anxiety I am still wrapping my head around this in belief, I think I am just avoidance of people cause I just don't enjoy conversation yet I am lonely.

I had anxiety attack yesterday due to unrelated with this, so I talk to my GP today about it as I had blood tests results, she said for someone in their mid 20s is too young to have no friends I do have a partner. She suggested I should go to church to go to make friends no offence I have issues with people believing things they believe in even though I was specific I am not into religion I am slightly spiritual just don't practice.

I don't know why she said I know it's hard but it's an option I need to meet people some reason made me shocked at first to suggest church.

I thought I post here cause someone might tell me they relate?

I avoid most conversations, I have nothing really interesting to talk about I normally sugarcoat my days talk about cause all I do is work and go to bed I am depressed most days I avoid most conversations due to that reason, my best friend used to have I had to cut out of my life cause he was nothing but drama he cared about his problems more than most people, I sat there all the time be his ear for his issues 1 year later I gave it a try he got me to open about mine when he did he had little interest in my depression and got new best friend in a whim tried to play "who wants to fight over me to win the top best friend" I realised he wasn't worth it drifted apart only thing he does is "like" my stuff on Instagram I don't even know why I have it at times that was a year ago.

I hate phone calls if I know you very well I am comfortable, I hate people who harass you with charity I know its there job I have nothing against charity if I was bags worth of money I would help animals but chasing me down the street makes me not trust them ever. I really believe I am hopeless at conversation, people end up finding me boring.

I think why do I exist? I knew I might have social issues I thought I am just avoidance of people cause I get irritated by most people who throw drama at me.

I think I am ranting here cause much I finding my head in disbelief, my Therapist most likely right.