i know what you mean!!! I thought i had lost everything after an accident. i had to live on the streets awhile. i do hope you try to get feeling better, i ended up on a pshyc ward but now i am happy someone came to help me. i put my family and mother through so much because i didn't know what was happenning to me pshysically and mentally. please try to see a doc and a therapist could also help too. good luck