So, my appointment this morning went pretty well. The conversation was hijacked some because I had a really bad panic attack last night. I had been texting my bf through it, so as soon as T brought up our relationship I thought about last night and started crying. But we were able to get back on track, and about halfway through she asked me if I had written anything in my journal that I wanted to talk about. I told her about the shame I feel over being in therapy, and that I feel judged for it. I told her about feeling incompetent, and that I feel shame over having these tools and not being able to use them. So we talked about how everyone needs help once in a while, and about trying to work more on reframing my negative thoughts. It kind of worked out with talking about what happened last night, because I told her that the rational part of my mind was trying to convince me that things were OK, but it was hard to listen to. So I guess that's where I'm at right now, working on trying to minimize the negative thoughts and focus more on the positive. It's not an easy task.