Thank you s4ndm4n2006,

You're absolutely right. Oh, when I mentioned the "what if's", I was told that I was being so negative and how I need to understand that they'e not going to live with me, that it's going only to be for a month or two.

They have an alternative shelter, an uncle with a spare room who even offered them to crash in, multiple times and they know it's only an hour away from me, why not just take that offer?! Why must you pressure me?

Ah.. I know why, because you feel more comfortable being here next to me, because they probably feel free to be controlling here, they see us as "kids", and perhaps in my uncle's house since he's about the same age as them, they know they can't control another man's house.

Sometimes I wish I would have been more rebellious as a teenager, that way maybe now as an adult they would respect my decisions and opinions.

I am trying to remain firm, I keep getting constant thoughts that I'm wrong for this but I know I'm not it's just something in my heart telling me I am, but I know that's just the guilt reaching out.