I'm so sorry you are going through this. I know what you feel... the days are longer and never ending because of the pain. it's hard to be present at work but it needs to be done and that's a constant battle with what you feel. you're needed but you feel dead inside. I would run to the bathroom and cry, or sometimes just be there for a few minutes even if I didn't have to use it.

are you taking any medications?
I'm not this time around with my depression. no $ . it's hard to get up every day. you're not alone. just keep posting here. I posted on depression forums this morning and I got a lot of support. it made me feel goo that I'm not alone. thought I was sad that people are going through what we are because I wouldn't wish it on anyone. just keep posting.