My t of a bit over four years is leaving. He started today's session telling me, and told me that we have six sessions to process, move on, etc... Really it's only five, because he was including today. It caught me quite off guard. He said it was unexpected, but I don't fully believe him. Last summer he was looking for a position, and let me know beforehand. Nothing panned out, so he told me nothing was changing. I wish he let me know that he was still actively looking for something else. He also told me before that if he was staying in the area then we could work out continuing with each other. That is not the case. Even though he will be only a few miles down the road.

When he told me I did my best to put a mask on. It wasn't even me spacing out like I can do at times. I was actually trying to put a smirk on my face. I rolled my eyes a few times at what he was saying. I don't think he noticed. He just knew I was silent. The few things I said he seamed to get annoyed at. I got the feeling I wasn't reacting the way he expected. Or perhaps it was because he was getting a bit emotional. Tears appeared a few times in his eyes.

Ugh. I don't fully know why I'm posting this, and I don't know what to do. This is my first time terminating with a t, and I guess I just am interested in how others have dealt with the end. Lol - you would think after the several years of reading this site I would be prepared. Thanks for any comments.