(((((((ww))))))) I wish I knew your spiritual beliefs right now because I have something I would like to say. If you are comfortable with hearing it, let me know and I will pm you.

Aside from that, I just want to say that it isn't possible to protect your children from EVERYTHING and no matter how vigilant a parent is, it is inevitable that some bad things are going to happen sometimes. I think it is obvious that your children love you, and that you love them. And in spite of the struggles of life, the love between a mother and a child can go a LONG way toward healing the hurts. Even if you were directly responsible for the things that happened to them (which you are NOT), having your loving nurturance would still help to heal them.

Don't beat yourself up. It's obvious how much you care about them and you did your very best. They seem to know that, too.

((((Hugs)))) if you want them
Angela