I have dissociated fairly frequently in my life, and there are years of my chlidhood without much memory. I have been working with T for just about a year now and have been dissociating less and less in session. This past weekend I had incrediblly painful anxiety and panic. On Saturday morning I did a relaxation tape and afterward was just lying in bed sort of drifting.

Suddenly, I had a sense of being "little me." I was referring to my mother but not in the third person. I was saying to someone, (probably a sibling), "Mommy....blah blah blah" (can't remember the rest). The thing is, it was the first time I actually felt the presence of the other me inside of me. I was panicked and frightened. I called T and we spoke briefly a few hours later. Even though I knew I had an inner child and even though I know I am a dissociater (from abuse), it's still frightening to have this real experience.

Maybe my little me feels safe now, letting me see her? Oh gosh, it makes me nervous.