Rubbish. I've got a partner, a family, a great job and yet I am lonely and sad. I feel guilty about everything. There's all these people with nothing that I have that are happy and grateful and here I am wallowing in a pit of self pity and self loathing. I push everyone away and I know I'm doing it but can't stop myself. Think I need to go back on meds but don't want to. Rambling and rushing thoughts